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I ended my day today with sadness in my heart. As me and my spiritual family gather in the church for our prayer meeting, a disturbing news was delivered to us. A former youth member had been stabbed and brought to the hospital. As we heared the news, we immidiately gathered and prayed. After the prayer meeting, his aunt, cousin and younger sister went to the hopital but unfortunatelly when they arrived there, he was already out of life. Lemuel Relox, also known as Tino, is around 21 years old, at hindi ako makapaniwala sa mura niyang edad ay lilisanin niya ang mundong ito. A part of me is feeling guilt dahil ang daming oras ang nasayang. Kung sana nakausap namin siya at hinikayat na bumalik sa church, siguro iba ang nangyari ngayon. But what is done, is done. The only thing that we can do is to move on and learn the lessons and correct our mistakes in the future. During the time na may sakit ang Lolo ko, lagi kong nasasabi sa sarili ko na ang lungkot ng buhay. Ipapanganak ka sa mu...

I started the month of October a bit rough and with a lot o thinking. And also during this month, word about depression had spread rapidly in my country due to some events. Because of these, I thought to myself, "am I also struggling with depression?" For almost three weeks, I've been having a "roler coster" emotion. Most of the day I would just lay down or look myself in the mirror and think how'd I spent my life for the past twenty five years. I felt like my life is passing by before me, time is running out, and I felt like doors are shutting out. I am alive, but I feel dead on the inside. I felt so alone and lonely, all I see is darknes. I am alive but I feel like I'm dead. It seems like my life has no direction and its going to be that way till I die. Then poof, fear rushed through me and something hit to the core. I don't want to die. I don't want to get old. I want to gi back to how I was before. And it felt crazy because I know it won...

September last year, I posted a blog about my sudden decision in entering the BPO industry for the second time around after four years of trying to run away from it. It was a hard decision to makes since I really had a bad experience during my first time in the said field. I was really hesitant at first and I've thought for a lot of times not to pursue it. But I was really in need of job back then and it is the only opportunity that opened for me, so pushed through it. Sad to say, at this very moment, I have already decided to leave that same company who opened its doors for me. But I would like to share to everyone those precious moments that I have experienced, and that I never regretted the decision that I made before. In fact, it was one of the best moments of my life. So here is my journey through my second BPO experience. Being haunted by my first BPO experience, I have sworn to myself that I will never go to that path again. But I broke my own promise due to my need. And i...